What I Believed: My Beliefs Today

Recently, I have kind of been waiting for something to hit me to help me through life, but i realized those arent the best moments. Because honestly, those are so rare, and they are gone in a flash. i have just felt kind of stuffed up. and trying to search through life, the things i have been clinging to so strongly, that having been pulling me through, were these: there are no answers, and you cant just figure out why these things happen. so, the most you can do is take the moments that happen to you, even if they aren't life changing, pleasant, great, spectacular, or even fine. if they are just the most normal or even terrible moments in the world, you have to take them. just take them, and have them. because even though someday we may lose our memory, or we may lose our limbs, or our families, or the thing we love the most, just living through your life, will always be enough. thats what i truly believe, thats what i mean when i say, "just live". this year, i have been surrounded by more death, than i have ever ever been before. seriously, its been scary. ive realized i dont know what to do, or say. at funerals, i dont want to act fake just because they are gone now, and at hospitals, i want to go up and hug every person and tell them that they are beautiful, but i cant, or i just dont. and you know, i realize now, that is okay. if i decide to at the moment, that is okay. ive realized, that just one moment, isnt completely life changing. and thats okay. thats great. and really, even though i dont talk to 99.9999% of the world, i feel so connected to all of them, so blessed to live here with them, and i love them. from this thought, i have learned to love the world. i feel so connected to the world. through every moment, everyday, every sad or awkward or amazing time. i dont know why, but that has been my peace, and it is my belief today.